I have this orchestra. It alone probably cost me more than I’ve earned on music so far in my career put together. But you know, if I would like people to pay for my music instead of, well, just downloading it somewhere, then it would be a bit hypocritical of me to just pull that off of some website for free, now wouldn’t it?
Well, even though doing music tends to ensure I can’t afford to eat for about a week every month, it feels more necessary. There is food for the body, and then there is food for the soul. I simply happen to find the soul more important. And when my soul is tied down behind a noisy and fairly intangible wall of random thoughts, worries and contemplations, it feels like that is where my focus should be.
There actually was a point to this. Oh yes. Orchestra. I think it is safe to assume that things are sounding different. They tend to do that when you exchange free ware synths with very expensive ones. I’ve always wanted string instruments. Cello, double basses, violas and all that. But I never had the funds. So I ended up layering many sounds on top of each other. A creative approach which I definitely think has it’s values. However, now I have things that sound more… grounded in reality.
So in between stressing and worrying about work, finances and life in general, I took some time to fix a song I started work on well over a year ago. I used cheaper sounds back then, now I finally got around to add in the real thing.
I must listen more. Make sure they are all leveled just right. Some drums need adjusting, or possibly complete removal. Once that is done, I only need to add four more lines of my voice, and it should be done.
I’m nervous. I feel so close now. It’s been a scattered mess for a long time, but it feels like every piece is finding its rightful place in the whole.
Knowing me I’ll find ways and reasons to delay, but I’ll reach a point where nothing more can be done. I feel confidence in that.
Just have to wait for October. Colors, trees, photography. I know what to do, but it might be too much.
We’ll see.
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